Random Thoughts.

Now that I'm a mother, I have a million questions that I wish I could ask my own mom. Did she enjoy domesticity? Did she ever feel resentful? Did she use cloth or disposable diapers? When did she start feeding me cereal? Did I like it? Did she have trouble getting me to sleep through the night? How did she manage to return to work when I was 3 months old? These are things I never thought to ask her about until they became relevant to my life. I am so wistful. I wish so much that I could pick up the phone and call her. Does anyone know the number for heaven?

I have learned that I'm anemic. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. It's common enough, but I still feel sort of ripped off, you know? I have to take these iron pills now and I've never had to take anything before because I've managed to keep a very careful diet. At least I now understand (and am getting treated for) the dizziness and fainting. It was getting scary there for awhile. I never knew when it would come on and I was so afraid that I'd faint while holding Josh.

I'm way too confessional. As soon as something happens in my life, I want to tell everyone I know about it. More often than not, I end up embarrassing myself, or worse, jinxing things. I need to learn how to shut up, ride the wave, and make it back to shore without flailing like a drowning woman.

While Josh isn't the cutest baby I've ever seen, he is definitely a likeable guy. I get so many comments about how friendly and bright he is. I'm just going to go ahead and take that as a compliment because I don't really have much else going on right now that's praiseworthy.

I have a pile of dirty clothes in my bedroom that resembles a mountain. Seriously. I am thinking about scaling it so I can get some press coverage about my perseverance and bravery and all that. "Local mom climbs Laundry Everest. Details at 11". Yessssssssss.

I have this friend named Trent who asked if I'd like to visit him and when I wrote him an email saying yes, I'd really like that, he ignored me. I've been punked.